5 YEARS AGO

As time goes by, people change, either for good or bad. Change is always hard at first but you get used to it eventually. Time is the main cause for change. Time passes and things transform. This includes me; 5 years ago I was a different person. I now have become more mature in so many ways; I have learned to just be myself.

Everyone wants to be liked by everyone. That was my main goal 5 years ago. If people wanted me to be funny I would give them funny, if they wanted me to be nice I would give them nice. Shortly, what mattered to me didn’t matter at all. What really mattered was what my friends thought of me. I had no self control over my actions because I was being controlled by others or shall I say I wanted to be controlled by others. That was 5 years ago. Now I know that nobody else matters but myself. You can’t please everyone so please yourself. I learned that trying to be like someone else is like if everyday were Halloween. Like Oscar Wilde says; “Be yourself because everyone else is taken”.

While time passes you learn that life get tougher. This means you have to put up with all the hard parts in life. To be strong, you have to think and act more mature. You have to see thing is a different perspective. In the stage of my life now, I see that being strong and not giving up is the only way to survive. And clearly wanting to be loved by everyone was making my life harder. Now I know keeping everything simple is the key to leave in peace. 5 years ago I definitely would not have agreed with this point of view.

5 years ago I was hibernating but now I am awake, I can see the difference between right and wrong. All along the way to happiness I was just feeling satisfied with myself. If I went back to my age of 5 years from now, I would definitely criticize myself everyday. From now on my new motto is “be happy with yourself only”.


Ayşe Güneş